Thing is, I feel like career wise, I am definitely in an amazing place. I have my Girls on the Run gig which I am loving even though I wish I had more hours. I'm beginning to help plan for the Plymouth Father's Day 5K (more hours!), and come March I hope to several Couch to 5K programs launching.
I don't want to be one of those people that never has time, is constantly fretting about what needs to get done, and above all reliving the same moment over and over trying to figure out how I could have changed the ending.
and so came about the novel idea of just shutting off the voices.. the nagging ones about everything. the ones that made me feel like a failure, a loser, not good enough, pretty enough, fit enough, thin enough... hell i lived with a lot of anxiety and stress, ALL THE TIME. I was uptight and tense and couldn't roll with the punches, even on the dumbest shit...
and you know what... i was just done with it.
it's funny when you are ready to make change, you normally do. it's easy to stick to resolutions because you are 100% behind them. and I am behind not feeling stressed, and anxious ALL THE TIME.
I never did the rubber-band thing, I didn't have too... I've been able to pinpoint when I'm fretting because I get anxious, angry, irritable, and it's then when I yank myself back to now. Does it always work? No, but with everything... progress not perfection!
Other live in the moment approvements:
- Iphone addiction: i've had several family members mention their disapproval at my constant need to be in the know with email, facebook, Twitter - so I'm really trying to cut back there
- enjoy moments: it seems silly but so often i am someplace doing something, and I'm already thinking about the next thing on my to-do list
It's all work in progress and as long as I can pinpoint the behavior I definitely feel like I am on the right track. It will be interesting to see what i have to say on this in December... doi!
Anyone else addicted to the phone, and been in an intervention?
because of financial constraints, I've had to downgrade from my blackberry to a sad little flip phone with out even a camera, but it's actually quite great. I pay more attention to the people I'm with and will check my email when I can. Glad to hear that you're making progress towards cutting out the anxiety :)
ReplyDeleteI know...I often think of getting rid of my Iphone just because of that... I just need to get the bf on board with that!
DeleteGood for you taking such an important step...
ReplyDeleteThank you! I think more of us could benefit from it and I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one struggling with finding the balance!
DeleteIt's such a challenge to turn off the voices, especially the negative ones that pop up now and again. I've realized lately how much fear has held me back and I too am done with it. I'm just moving forward and will have faith that when one door closes, another one will open or I will find my way one way or another.
ReplyDeleteYou're doing something and that something is something you like and that is enough. You are pursuing dreams and goals and that is commendable. You're not settling for just a job, or just meandering aimlessly in life. Don't feel like you have to have everything figured out, just be true to yourself and everything else will come together. That is how you'll be happy in life.
With regards to the phone thing, my husband did comment on my "attachment" to my iPhone...that was until he got an iPad. He doesn't say much now. ;)
Keep up the great work and be true to yourself!
~Sunshine
Thank you!! Your comment means a lot to me.. and I'm glad I'm not the only one who is dealing with possible phone addiction!
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