Genuine

I didn't think I'd be nervous. The past two times I went up to the Y office I felt confident, and not at all jittery and today... today I have the jitters.

Truth is, had you told me last October that I would be working for a cause that focused on helping girls build self-esteem through running I would have laughed.

Laughed because:

1. I hadnt committed to this career yet.
2. Had no clue how to get where I am today.
3. Had no clue that decent companies still exist.

I read through my post the day I got let go, I remember the crap I was told those weeks leading up to my lay off and the crap I dealt with way before then and it makes me sad that I tolerated that. That I didn't leave on my own terms.

I think my former companies emotional/verbal abuse really screwed with my mind. Had me doubt my capabilities and it probably wasn't until I started coaching my ladies that I started trusting myself again. It was around then that I started committing.

The first time I met with my new boss I was somewhat taken aback when she started saying how excited she was to have me on board. Then she said it  again, and again and wow...how did I get this lucky to find a job where someone other than myself realizes how competent/passionate I am?!

It's a new chapter that I can't wait to begin!