I've been talking about Freelancing since January but only recently started going after it seriously. Truth is when I pitched this job, I never thought I'd get it. I completely priced myself out of it, only to realize I completely underbid it for the amount of work it actually was!
It was the best and worst experience simultaneously! I mean, it was great because I realized I could do this, ya know, if I wanted too. Heck, the idea of freelancing is a neat idea but I dunno... I'm not 100% behind the idea yet.
Given the fact that it took me 3 extra weeks to complete the job, I really began to beat myself up.
I mean, I'm needed to work on the front landscaping, I wanted to plants flowers, start my veggie garden, focus on my PT certification, losing weight... and I felt like I put my life on hold for 4 weeks!
Ok, ok, I know 4 weeks isn't horribly long but while I was in the midst of translating, I just knew this wasn't it. I was taking time away from pursuing my passions.
Why? Because I'm too busy proving to other people what I should be doing.
So here is my declaration:
I refuse to do anything just because I think someone else will be happy by it.
I have 3 big goals for this summer:
1) Become Running Coach certified - August
2) Become Personal Trainer certified - August
3) Find a job that involves the first 2 goals - in progress
That's it... I'm tired of living up to others people's expectations etc.
I need to remind myself that, if anything I do, doesn't work towards my 3 goals. I'm obviously doing it because of outside influences.
What have you done today, yesterday, last week because of what others might think of you?
I am actually getting out of that thinking. I have been doing what will make me happy and have decided to not worry about what other people think. If there is anything I can do to push you towards the goal dates let me know.
ReplyDeleteI actually made it a goal for the week (due to a project i'm starting with another person) to scrap thinking that involves other people and/or makes me feel negative. And you can totally do any of it if you want, I'm coming to terms with that fact as I start viewing things in a more personal manner :)
ReplyDeletegreat list of attainable goals, good luck! i think it's important to realize you should do what makes you happy, not someone else.
ReplyDeleteI like your goals! They all sound so positive, healthy and happy!
ReplyDeleteWow, Rebecca! I totally understand where this is coming from.
ReplyDeleteI know you can do it!
I am really interested in getting certified as a personal trainer as well.. but I got all the books quite awhile ago, and I've just been too... nervous to start! I am not a good studier/learner/memorizer! So I feel like I'd never pass the test anyway!
ReplyDeleteHow is your learning going? Do you find it really difficult?
@Dawn: I just may have you hold me accountable!
ReplyDelete@Gingermandy:It's tough but I wonder how much others actually influence me or it's just all in my mind? does that make sense?
@ria, fruitfly, and onegirlcircus: thank you!
@chai: I sent you an email!