The Year of Fabulousity

I've been meaning to get this up since this past weekend but just haven't felt up to it, but since I'm back in the office, trying to do my thang, I'm thinking it's time to go live!

so...my thang...i've been grappling with for a while (this is also something i partially blame for my weight stall, a whole thing called 'self-love'..tihi...)

but i digress partially because i don't even know where to begin...

So, I'll start here..Hi! I'm Rebecca, people also refer to me as Rae.

I went through this phase where I wanted to be called Rae. Why? Well...because I read in Cosmo, or some similar girly mag, that you had a better chance of meeting/dating guys if your name was boy-ish. And of course, for the life of me I can't think of any examples besides Sam aka Samantha.

Smart idea, riiiiiiight. What can I say?! I was young...and dumb...

Needless to say, I've slowly gone back to Rebecca and besides Nate's group, aka our core group of friends, everyone else knows me as Rebecca.

Why am I mentioning this? Well, you guys don't really know me. I mean, know me.

Yes, I am a weight obsessed person but I've come to realize that my weight obsession stems from a far greater problem.

I frequently repress the person who I really want to be. I do everything because I feel the need to be accepted by this group or that group, or god forbid my family.

sssoooo, my goal for this year is to not only be true to myself but embrace my fabulousity. Thank you Kimora for coining that term!

I'll still talk about my battle with weight but I'm also going to talk about how much I love decorating, party planning, traveling, eating, etc.

To say I am scared shitless would be an understatement, it means I have to commit to changes that I have always struggled with. It means that I can't be lazy and take the easy way out, because I've been taking the easy way out, wwwwaaaaayyyyyy too often.

It should definitely be an interesting, bumpy ride...

buckling up my seatbelt...