am i sick?

i was at subway today getting my lunch since ive been refusing to make anything because of the chaos that currently exists in my house. i knew the 6 inch chix teriyaki wasnt going to keep me full so i figured i'd grab the chips and make it a meal.

however, as i am handing the guy my debit card, my eye drifts to this sign that shows all the sides they offer now: apple slices, yogurt and what do i do?

i put the chips back and request a baggie of apple slices!

WTF....i think the paint fumes are getting to me!

what a blah month...

i don't have a lot to say...i'm eating right, i'm working out like i've never worked out before and the scale aint budgin!!!!!

you don't really want to hear that right?

so let me focus on 2 NSV's:

1. muscles...lordy lou...muscles are beginning to show that i cant remember seeing. i'm on week 4 of Jillian's workout and i'm lovin what I am seeing. I would like to think I'm more muscular than when i was 169 lbs.
2. i bought a pair of Gap size 12's back in January because they only cost $12 and i finally felt "thin" enough to wear them!!! wooo hooo!!! let me tell you...i felt HOT in 'em on Friday. no muffin top, not spray canned to my thigh or hips. just perfect.

yup...thats really about it...the contractor was here this AM at 8 and not really quite sure when he is leaving. have a good one...

may is half way done

another week. i always mean to sit down and write but i don't.

i've been super busy/stressed and feel like i have to devote all my time to figuring out when i can workout, what i'm going to be eating, etc.

we started demolition on our living room last wednesday and the last thing i want is a repeat of last summer. it was around this time that i quit.

unfortunately, quitting is easier. so much easier than trying to figure out a way to get to your tupperware that is blocked by a 300 lb tv which is lodged between 2 couches. or justifying that going to the gym is more important than a few extra hours of sleep.

i'm doing fab, no doubt. i just wish my spirits were higher today. i had a small break down last night, tears were shed, but this disarray and dust is temporary, i know that. it would just be all worth it if the scale gave me somethin. something!!

not really quite sure when i'll be back, just keep sending me positive/on track vibes!

A new week

i've been sort of quiet lately. sorry but things have been super busy.

unfortunately the first week and a half hasn't been the most stellar workout wise or eating wise..i'm a tad up from last months weight but overall i am quite excited considering of the last 11 days, i've pretty much eaten out 6 of those days. not only that but when i went clothes shopping on saturday, clothes are fitting so much better! back into 12's and Larges. Granted I'm still in XL's and 14's but nothing like a month out ago. it feels fabulous, especially since i wasn't totally disgusted by what i saw in the mirror.

nate and i pinkypromised that regardless of what happens, we are eating in this week and rededicating ourselves to the gym.

i will not deviate even though we are undertaking a major project this week...i don't even want to talk about it because it's sort of embarrassing....and let me state, that i had nothing to do with the buying of the current house i live in...it was all the boyfriends fault!!!!!! ok...so...we are responsible for the tear down of the drop ceiling and paneling on the wall so that this weekend the dry wall people can come in and start the drywalling...ugh....we have to move all the furniture out of the living room, find a spot for it elsewhere in the house which i have no clue how we are going to do this since we are already strapped for space. on top of that...depending on how fast they move, determines how long we'll be living in disarray. i really hope they can do a lot this upcoming weekend and then during memorial day weekend or else we won't be getting back to it until june 13th!!!!

on that note...have a good one!

it's only Tuesday!?

sorry for the quietness, i'm stressed out of my mind.

i can't get too deep into it because it would just take me too damn long for me to type out. long story short, nate had been offered a job in germany for a year. i thought, we both had agreed that at this time it wasn't ideal because it was only a year long and it made no sense for me to quit my job. well, i guess nate countered if they were to extend it to a 3 yr long contract we would consider it. i didn't even realize he had countered until someone contacted Nate asking about his offer. as far as i had known, the whole thing had been taken off the table. in between that lapse, another department offered him a different position, one which i was totally rooting for. nate wasn't that into this one even though it promised considerably more money and a possible promotion in 2 years. although nate is pursuing both at the moment, he's totally leaning towards the germany contract. i'm not due to personal reasons which i'm not gonna get into. either way, i got so worked up about it last thursday, my body revolted, shut down and demanded rest and food.

needless to say i went Biggest Loser style on the gym last night..we made our offer and now we just have to see how it pans out. i can't bother stressing about it anymore...i didnt bust my ass last month for it all to come undone about something that i can't really control.

so...onto happier things....i only have 28 days to get ready for Vegas!!!!!

i'm so excited!! it's been so long since Nate and I have been able to take a vacation just the two of us and we love Vegas...i know Vegas tends to be crazy and busy 24 hrs a day but i'm planning for lots of relaxation. we booked our rooms at Mandalay Bay and i can't wait to spend the mornings at the beach and then the afternoon/evenings out in the casinos/bars.

any recommendations for any of the restaurants/clubs?

oh, and a product review...the bagefuls...DELIGHTFUL!!! I absolutely love them!!! a great snack for on the go.

on that note, have a good one!