one of thee reasons why i disappeared was because i just got ill thinking of having to post. i can't really tell you why. maybe because i was stagnating and i didn't myself want to face the reality that i was burnt out, not interested, who knows?!
i still don't know, but i know this. june was ok. i slightly gained but nothing monstrous and overall i felt good. never stuffed, unable to move. july, is another story, maybe because i was on va-ca who knows. it was then though that i became familiar with the eating to an extreme, feeling stuffed to the gills unable to move. it was then also that my once loose clothes began to 'fit' again. what a shitty ass feeling i tell ya!
things have been good this week. not perfect by a long shot much better. those stuffed feelings are a thing of the past. and i'm slowly getting back to how things should be. i'm still dealing with minimal anxiety everytime i think of posting, as if the blog alone makes me consume more. with that in mind, my posting may be sporadic. im sure once I figure things out, if ever, i'll be more regular.
