Wednesday, January 31, 2007
I obviously have the whole maintaining schtick down. I can't complain since I didn't give my 100% this month.
What I do know though, is that this is getting old. 3 months in a row?! You have got to be kidding me?!
In a way it sorta makes me excited though because it gives me hope that this is it. The final frontier or some quack like that!
I did spend more days in the 160's than the 170's this month.
Goal for next month: only 160's!
yay for another 28 days!!!
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Although always a major focus, lately it's taken a backseat to all the other sh!t that's called Life.
Works been up and down.The automotive industry...Ford and GM mostly...aren't doing well and for someone who works for a supplier, that doesn't do much for me. The word 'layoff' has become so entrenched in my daily vocabulary it's reminding me of exactly the time right after 9/11 when terrorism was added to our vocabulary.
Regardless, times our tough for our auto makers and although I sit here complaining about it, I'm also contemplating what car I should buy next. The VW Tiguan or the BMW X3. Great, right? Non-American cars and I'm complaining about my job?!
Although nothing has been said about my job, I know there's a possiblity. There's always a possibility and that's freaking me out.
Even though I absolutely, 3/4ths of the time, hate my job. Mondays are usually the worse and by Friday I think it's not half bad. It was during the move that they also decided to re-organize the company and I'm just not happy with my current role. I was doing a lot of Admin stuff pre-move and now I'm more of an Administrative Assistant...::Secretary::...and I feel like my 20 grand education just doesn't need the abuse I receive from overpaid, big-headed Engineers.
Then, my mom, being the procrastinator that she is really waited till the last minute to take care of some documentation that should have been completed months ago and now on the eve of our trip (ok, we aren't leaving till next Monday but you know what I mean) we're scrambling to get all this sh!t taken care of. It's stressful, mainly because we are all dreading my grandpa's birthday next week.
I don't even mind taking the time off and flying over there, even though we won't even be there a week, it's all the people. I will straight up say that my family is probably one of the most superficial families out there. They do a lot for a show and honestly I don't/can't deal with it anymore. No, I do not drive an Audi nor do I have 50 grand sitting around in a bank account somewhere and I will probably not marry anytime soon so that I don't have to invite your free-loading ass to it! That sounds mean, I know, but God damn if it weren't the truth!
A week of feeling small....yummy.....
On that note, tomorrow's my monthly weigh-in. No major loss that's for sure but definately still in the 160's!!!
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Seriously, I get this intense want every Friday afternoon and it usually lasts all through the weekend until Monday morning.
Obviously, I equate food with good times and Fridays is the beginning of 2 days where I have NOTHING to do. I mean I have plenty to do but nothing that is work related or that can cause any unnecessary stress.
Every week though I wage the battle of not sitting down with a 5lb bag of M&M's and liters of Diet Coke. The reality is though that half the time I wish I could sit there with the M&Ms and Diet Coke.
Will that part of me, the fat girl, always be around?
Every weekend I try, try to not succumb to it but in some ways I do and give in partially. I just wish I could do more to end this cycle.
Does it get easier the longer you do this?
Thursday, January 25, 2007
I've been journaling like a mad fool, exercised every day except for yesterday and am going into the weekend with 24 Flexies left. I'm hoping for a 2 lb loss again this week...::keeping fingers crossed::
Works been pretty good lately. Since the move I've been temporarily located with a different department where I've gotten to know this one chic whom we'll call Biker Girl.
Biker Girl mountain bikes semi-professionally or something. She gets sponsored by a local brewery so thats pretty cool, eh? Being healthy and fit is pretty important to her so it's nice to have someone to talk to about healthy eating and such! Did I mention she has a smoking bod? And I mean that in the least sexual way. She's just frickin in awesome shape!
Before the move, we'd say Hi but lately we've been talking quite a bit. What totally freaked me out though was when she told me her weight one day. I mean, who tells a random stranger their weight?! Sounds somewhat contradictory doesn't it? I mean I post my weight (loss) every week/month. Still, I couldnt imagine telling anyone what I weight if I had to see them every day.
At 5'6" she weighs 144, which now makes me question if perhaps 136 may be too skinny? I dunno...I guess I'll have to see once I get closer to it!
Either way, it's nice to have someone to talk at work. Doesn't make the 9 hrs seem as bad!
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and hopefully I'll be back with a 2 lb loss!!!
Sunday, January 21, 2007
but, maybe, there is something to it...perhaps, the secret is...they are organized.
Besides losing weight one major goal for me this year is to have a regurarly cleaned home. I have kept true to my word! Last week as well this past weekend have been spent cleaning the home. I only tackle 2 rooms per weekend. We only live in 4, bedroom, master bath, living room and kitchen. So, at least the basic ones get cleaned every other week.
I realized earlier this week though that it's time to make something else a habit. Prepping food earlier than Sunday afternoon! Waiting till the very last minute just isn't conducive and leaves me burnt out for the rest of the week. Plus, I've noticed that if everything is cut up and waiting in the fridge I'm less likely to reach into the pantry to grab chips or crackers. So, I started Friday night, peeling, chopping, cutting fruits and veggies and today I'm prepping other meals. It feels good being ahead of the game. It's helping me feel in control.
The party Saturday was good as well. I had given myself permission to eat 1 piece of cake, but it was crappy KROGER cake so since they had a chcolate fountain, I decided to indulge in that. Oh my gawd...ok, so I overindulged but nothing that wrecked the scale too badly.
speaking of which, this is what the scale said today....
I'm somewhat disappointed since the scale was pretty damn low on Saturday and I just wasn't able to get it back down there for Monday. Oh well...it's ok. Determined to see Saturday's number tomorrow, I've been battling the Snack Monster all afternoon and I'll be damned if I let him get me now!
Thursday, January 18, 2007
This morning I was greeted by a lower number. Always a great motivator of course.
I had a totally On Point day today and have been extremely geeked being back. I said No to the sandwiches in the work kitchen, to the candy at the gas station and the hummus and pita bread while cooking.
Saturday we are invited to a party. I'm a little concerned. I don't plan on drinking and I do plan on having dinner before but we all know how that goes....I will prevail because I want a loss and I want to reach goal this year!
I know that when I weigh 169, I feel on top of the world yet when I weigh in at 174 [not like that has happened recently or anything ;)] I feel gross. Obviously, I feel enough discomfort to change things before they get out of control and that is what I call progress.
So, ladies, I wish you all a very successful OP weekend!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
i know the past week and a half was PMS. i get crazy tired and could easily sleep 12 hrs. i have dr. jekyl and mr. hyde moments and i should invest in Snickers stock. maybe i'll just take a week and a half hiatus next month because damn do i sound whiny.
hell, theres no better way to start off your back on trackness by forgetting your breakfast. ssaaawweeettt. yes, i'm sure i'll lose weight.
besides that i don't have a whole lot to say. i'll also have a good day food wise tomorrow, i know it. i dunno if i'll have a loss this week. it's quite possible but then again i may not. as long as i have a maintain i'll be happy.
i can still salvage this 28 day challenge and i will! it just takes baby steps to get back in gear.
1st step: no more mindless night time snacking!!!
Monday, January 15, 2007
So, the week……was ok. Not stellar but not completely lost. I’m not satisfied with my actions but whatever. It’s a new week and I plan on making this one, the one that should have been!
That means, WORK OUT (I only worked out 3 times this week) and “write what I bite” (thanks Alea!!!!!) which includes counting.
Food wise I struggled last week. The week began rough since we had nothing in the house and I was forced to fly by the seat of my pants. Then we had a gazillion unplanned eating out events. It was crazy. It seriously felt like it was pre-Christmas time again! I did the best I could and that’s really all one can do.
Oh, and time. My work moved 10 – 15 minutes North of where we used to be and I am struggling with the additional time driving. Typically I can do the now 50 minute drive but when it gets to be over an hour, is when I freak out. It seems regardless of whether I get up at 4:15 to workout or if I get up at 5 I’m exhausted come 9 at night. I only managed twice last week to get up that early and the other days when I had nothing going on to prevent me from working out at night I didn’t.
Goals for this week:
1. Workout in the AM!!!!
2. Write what I bite!! That means I must be disciplined to stick to the plan I’ve created. Plus, I spent most of Sunday preparing all food that’s I can just grab them and go
Achievable goals for sure.
On that note….my weight.
The original goal was to lose 10 lbs. so that I’d weigh 159.5. Upon waking up last Monday, I had put on 2 lbs. ☹ The goal still stands except that now it’s 12 lbs.
How much did I lose this week….I gained g.5 lb. Yup…only 12.5 more to go!!!
Ugh…I’m not motivated. I feel blah…. But I must buckle down because the half of January is already gone.
Why does this always happen?! I was so geeked in Germany and then 2 days into it, I come into a funk!?
Perhaps more accountability, more blogging…I’ll give it a try this week.
Above all, I'm not feeling sorry for myself because that doesn't help. My food is all accounted for, I have a plan and I'm focusing only on today.
Monday, January 08, 2007
Should I do the predictable and state a New Year’s Resolution? I think we all know what it is…….
I had a huge long list of resolutions but I know myself. I can’t tackle them all or else by June most of them will be abandoned, half accomplished and me feeling like a failure. It was easy and hard to decide on the one that I wanted to focus on.
On top of the list was “run a marathon”. I really disappointed myself last fall by not coming through on that one and I wanted to make sure that this year I would rectify that wrong. The reality is though that when training for something like the marathon, I do not want to be worrying about my weight. Yes, few do lose weight when training for a marathon but I do not want to be depriving my body of fuel when I’m running 8, 12, 16 miles. I know I would take me wanting to lose weight and training to the extreme and then burn myself out. I don’t want a repeat of that.
Besides that one, I have a few other non-weight related items (you know, like not waiting till the very last minute to speed clean before company arrives. I’ve gotten better but now I want to make it habit! Or waiting till the last minute to pack and then forgetting half my shiyat. Stuff like that).
Mission 2007: I will weigh 136 by Dec. 31, 2007.
Yup, I’m giving myself an entire year to reach that goal. Do I really want to take a year? No. Ideally I’d reach goal by July 12th but damn does that seem close and that’s going stress me out. I don’t want the stress. Whereas 3 lbs a month seems doable even if I haven’t ever pulled those numbers consistently!
I’m starting off with a challenge, 28 Days to the T, it’s really quite simple.
1. Stick to the allowed Points. Usually not a problem until dinner. MUST be disciplined to measure out/weigh etc for correct pointage!
2.Work out!!! Usually, once again, not a problem. Lets achieve at least 28 AP’s a week!!!
3. At least 3 liters of water every day!
4. Oh, and work on those daily health guidelines. Must get better with those.
Radical, huh? Ha! It’s really that simple and yet I always make it so much harder on myself by guesstimating dinner or allowing myself to go over Points on junk that I don’t need.
It means standing my ground when I say I don’t want to go out to eat, or putting myself first before those dirty dishes.
I’m ready, I’m rearing and I’m making it to the finish line!
Friday, January 05, 2007
Let's see...I'm still in Germany but will be back in the States on Sunday, somewhat sad because then it goes back to work but also excited because I'm ready to get started on my first challenge!
Before that though, here are a few things about my trip...
- Getting your hair done here is super cheap. yes, color and cut for about $75. i'll post pics when i get home. Not quite sure how I feel about it, it's not 100% how I wanted it to be but perhaps it#s just that it's so drasticallz different from how it was this morning.
- It's totally ok for you to be drinking at 11 AM as long as your supporting a local organization such as the Bowling Club or the Wrestlers.
- The week between the New Year is filled with many hikes to some remote destination in the middle of no where to drink and eat!
- Döner. Pita bread filled with lamb or pork meat, red cabbage, shredded lettuce, onion and a garlic sauce.
- Quark which supposedly is curdeled cheese or something. Quite delicous on a brötchen/ pc of french baguette with jelly.
- Although the German government has passed laws to allow stores to be open on Sundays, the extremely Catholic Bavaria is overall boycotting the operation of stores on Sunday! YEAH!!!!
- The Original Christmas Market at Nürnberg where we saw the Christkind. oh, did i mention how on the train at 9:30 AM a group of boys were already clinking beer bottles?
- Oh, the bunte teller (the colorful plate filled with nothing but exquisite chocolates) is delicious and dangerous because it magically refills itself every night for over 14 days.
I'm sure there's more but I can't think of anything else right now. I'm very excited and eager for my return. I feel great and ready to jump back into losing weight. The scale is a tad higher than it was at the end of the year. Thats what you get when you use a half a liter of olive oil for potatoe pancakes!
It's also exciting to read about everyones renewed dedication/motivation! I wish us all the greatest success at achieving our goals in 2007!