Friday, June 30, 2006
Yup..That's my final weight for the month of June..174...not bad, I guess...I mean it is a 4 lb loss for this month, approximately a lb a week..healthy, yes, satisfying, no!
So, you know how I was in a funk, well, yesterday, mysteriously it just disappeared and I felt great. Well..since I had procrastinated running, I had to do it in the afternoon, ok, I've run in the afternoon before but I decided to add a mile. Holy shit...yeah, I walked a majority of those 4 miles yesterday. I knew that today I would have no time to go running in the PM so I hauled my ass outta bed at 7 and went for a run and woah woah woah... what a difference to go running early in the AM compared to the afternoon even evening. I should be getting up earlier from now on!
Which brings me to another thing... when I first stated I was going to run the Detroit Marathon, I also said I was going to run a 4th of July 5k, but now I'm doubting myself. While reading over the description, the one word that haunts me is fast. Yes, the run is considered fast, but what does fast mean. Now I envision there being like 5 people plus me, and all of them running 6 minute miles so by the time I get to the Finish, everything will already be taken down and Ill be standing there all by myself. Isn't that crazy?! I just dunno...
Ok, thats all I really have... I'm still sorta under the weather although now I'm angry too! Angry because I stopped caring about my weight for a while and now I'm not happy with the number.
Worried about the fact that my goal for next month, which will mostly be spent in Germany, will be to maintain. I don't want to maintain right now, but at the same time I don't want say No to everything I love because I just don't get over there that often anymore. At the same time, I know that by me saying yes I can easily put on the pounds and I REFUSE, REFUSE, REFUSE to gain any weight this time!
Posted by Rebecca at 9:04 AM