Yup..That's my final weight for the month of June..174...not bad, I guess...I mean it is a 4 lb loss for this month, approximately a lb a week..healthy, yes, satisfying, no!
So, you know how I was in a funk, well, yesterday, mysteriously it just disappeared and I felt great. Well..since I had procrastinated running, I had to do it in the afternoon, ok, I've run in the afternoon before but I decided to add a mile. Holy shit...yeah, I walked a majority of those 4 miles yesterday. I knew that today I would have no time to go running in the PM so I hauled my ass outta bed at 7 and went for a run and woah woah woah... what a difference to go running early in the AM compared to the afternoon even evening. I should be getting up earlier from now on!
Which brings me to another thing... when I first stated I was going to run the Detroit Marathon, I also said I was going to run a 4th of July 5k, but now I'm doubting myself. While reading over the description, the one word that haunts me is fast. Yes, the run is considered fast, but what does fast mean. Now I envision there being like 5 people plus me, and all of them running 6 minute miles so by the time I get to the Finish, everything will already be taken down and Ill be standing there all by myself. Isn't that crazy?! I just dunno...
Ok, thats all I really have... I'm still sorta under the weather although now I'm angry too! Angry because I stopped caring about my weight for a while and now I'm not happy with the number.
Worried about the fact that my goal for next month, which will mostly be spent in Germany, will be to maintain. I don't want to maintain right now, but at the same time I don't want say No to everything I love because I just don't get over there that often anymore. At the same time, I know that by me saying yes I can easily put on the pounds and I REFUSE, REFUSE, REFUSE to gain any weight this time!
SUPER ! WUNDERBAR ! TOLL !
ReplyDeleteyou did it ...you lost weight in a healthy way and that alone matters.
YOU LOOK GREAT !!
Kopf hoch ..Brust raus..und laecheln ...IMMER LAECHELN ;-))
It's definately a nice change from the previous 2 monthes!
ReplyDeletedon't worry about being last, i'm sure you won't be the only one who's just starting out. and anway you're doing it for yourself, think how great you'll feel when you run over the finish line. no matter how long it takes. you know we'll be cheering you on!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on the loss...4 pounds is good.
ReplyDeleteAs for your worries about being last in the 5k or the marathon, I think all first-timers have those thoughts. You'll do a great job and it will be an awesome experience!
Have you ever read the Weight Loss Diaries by Courtney Rubin? I found it very inspiring to read her experiences about starting to run marathons.
Trust me, you won't be last. I still have that fear and I've done several races - 5K, half-marathons and marathons. And, the pace they allow us before they close the course is more than enough time. Before my first half, I was positive I wasn't going to be "fast" enough and they weren't going to let me finish! :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats on your loss hun! WOOoooOHoooooo! Don't worry about being the last person. They won't take down everything, but I know what you are saying. We have this great knack of imagining the worse don't we? Just think how "high" you'll be once you complete it. Who cares what your time is, once you have it then from there you can work to improve..you know? You're doing great!
ReplyDeleteGermany...how nice! I'd say just do your best. Enjoy your foods, but also cut back. What I try to do is enjoy what I want, but only eat half that way you aren't missing out, but you aren't going crazy either. Whatever happens though...don't beat yourself up over it!!